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Room 515 - Tuesday Evening

Liz had been putting it off for far to long, she had to call Professor Broom despite how much she didn't want to.

She found the card that had his contact details on it and dialed the number, finally she heard a 'hello, Professor Broom speaking,' Liz nearly hung up but she took a deep breath and responded.

"Professor Broom?" she said uncertainly.

"Liz," he said, he sounded suprised and happy to hear her, "how are you?"

"I haven't been that good," she admitted quietly.

"What happened Liz?" he immediately sounded concern, "don't you like Fandom?"

"I like Fandom, it's a good school...but..." the tears that she had been trying to supress started falling.

"But..." Professor Broom prompted.

"I don't know what to do," she sobbed, "things have gotten out of control, I've been lying to people since I got here, people know the truth, I was abducted by aliens and my powers went out of control again and I was in the clinic for a week -" she couldn't continue she was crying to hard.

"Liz, take a few deep breaths," Professor Broom instructed, "try and calm down,"

Liz didn't know how she managed to it but she did what he had said, "I'm sorry," she apologized, "I should have called earlier but ..."

"Don't apologize Liz," he said, "you have done nothing wrong, maybe I shouldn't have expected that you were going to adjust to a new school so soon after it happened,"

"I'm scared," she said softly, the tears were starting up again.

Professor Broom was instantly sympathetic, "I'm sorry Liz, I should have waited before I sent you to Fandom...I didn't expect this to happen while you were there..."

"I didn't mean for it to happen," Liz said quietly, "invasions happen fairly regularly, I just...it's...no one else has destructive powers like mine, I blew up the alien ship..."

"Do you want to come home?" Professor Broom offered, "you have done well to stay there as long as you have, if you wanted to come home I wouldn't have blamed you,"

"No," Liz replied, in a firm voice that suprised her, "I like it here, I like all of my classes and the people that I have met are nice, it's the first school I've been at where I haven't been bullied,"

Professor Broom was quiet for a while, finally he said, "if you are happy there, you can stay, I'm concerned for your mental health Liz...is there anyone you can talk to?"

Liz gazed at the floor as she replied, "a few people know," she said softly, "I went to confessionals yesterday,"

"Confessionals?" Professor Broom said in suprise, "Liz what happened wasn't your fault,"

"I just wanted to talk to someone," Liz said guiltly, "I feel lost,"

"I understand Liz," he sighed, "it's been a very hard few months for you," he paused, "would it be possible for you to come home at some point, for the weekend?"

"Next weekend, maybe?" Liz replied, "I was going to come home for spring break but then I was abducted, I never replied to the letter that Hellboy sent..."

"He was concerned about that," Professor Broom said.

"There was something wrong with the mail," Liz said, the tears were now falling again, "then it was fixed but I was in the clinic...and -"

"I'll let him know," Professor Broom said, "I think it's time we started your training,"

"Training?"

"Not full on training," he promised, "I want to start it off slow, so that you can get used to it,"

Liz nodded, even though she knew that he couldn't see her, "I'm sorry professor," she sobbed.

"Don't apologize for anything Liz," he told her, "will you be alright?"

Liz nodded again, "I will be okay here," she managed to get out between her tears.

"I'll let you go now Liz, but thank you for calling,"

"Bye -- professor,"

"Goodbye Liz, I'll hopefully see you next weekend,"

When she hung up Liz sank down on the floor, sobbing. Blackie sensed something was wrong and he climbed onto her lap, she held her tightly to her. Liz had thought a phone call to Professor Broom would make things easier for her but it had only made them harder.

[the fact that Liz is upset and she made a phone call is okay for broadcast, what she talked about with Professor Broom is NFB. Door's closed but post is open]

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John rapped on her door, a chunk of chocolate KRackel of the Gods in his hand, wrapped in wax paper. "Hey, Liz! Ya busy?"

Liz took a deep breath, "no," she managed to reply, "the door's unlocked," she added, her voice shaking slightly.

"Cool!" He popped in with a bounce in his step due to sugarhigh. "I have chocolaahey, you okay?" He squatted next to her on the floor.

"I don't know..." she whispered, staring at her hands as she tried to stop the tears from falling.

"Hey. Shit!" He grabs a ~~totally modded!~~ box of tissues nearby and presented one to her. "You okay? WHat happened? D'y'need to go to the clinic?" He starts visually assessing for trauma.

Liz took a tissue and shook her head, "I don't need to go to the clinic," she said quietly, "I...called Professor Broom -"

"PRof Brozwhitzit? What'd he say?" He was uncertain if she'd let him touch him, give her a hug, so he just hovered nearby.

"I...told him what had happened," she said quietly, she would have been very grateful for a hug if John wanted to give her one.

JOhn opened his arms to give her a hug. "I take it that it went spectacularly well?"

"I don't know why I started crying," Liz replied as she allowed John to give her a hug, she needed one right then, "he didn't blame me...he was understanding I just..."

He patted her back, making murmuring noises. It's proably best if she just lets it out. "It's okay. It's okay, you're allright."

"He wants me to start training..." she said quietly.

"Well, that's great!" When she didn't immediately respond, he followed up with a less enthusiastic, "Right?"

"I don't know..." she said softly, "if it helped me control my powers it would be good, but things are happening to fast..."

"Things only happen as fast as you let them." he said. "Except when they don't." He was quiet for a moment. "What do you want?"

"To be normal but that's vitually impossible unless I find a way to get rid of my powers," she sighed, "I don't know what I really want anymore,"

"What's normal to you? Have you looked around the island? Shit. I'm one of the normaller ones, cuz I don't have powers, and I'm still fucked up. And let's not get started on dreams."

"I don't really know what being normal is," Liz sighed, "I've certainly never been normal,"

"Join the club. Or, rather, join the club that's never really existed even though it should." He wondered if he should break the hug. He didn't want her to think he was abandoning her. "I know I'm messed up. Trying to make the most of it, now."

If John wanted to pull away Liz wouldn't have objected, she sighed, "I've been trying but...it's hard,"

JOhn shifted a bit, sitting next to Liz, one arm still on her shoulder. "What all did he say?"

"He...I...think he blames himself for what happened recently,"

"With the aliens recently? Or did something else happen that I'm not aware of, becuase I live under a rock. With plumbing and TV, mind you, but still."

"I think...he feels bad because he sent me to school so soon after it had happened,"

"Well, what do you think? SHoulda stuck around? Better off here?"

"I like it here," she said quietly, "it's the longest that I've stayed at a school where I haven't been bullied...but I'm scared of what will happen if someone knows about me and doesn't react well to it," she was thinking about the email that had been sent out about Alec.

"WHat, like the Alec thing? Alex? Unless you're a secret government agent, you should be fine," he said wryly, giving her shoulder a squeeze. "ANd now would be the best time, as people are all defensive about him and all 'but he hasn't killed anyone here' and stuff."

"I don't know," Liz sighed, "I'm just as dangerous...all those people I killed, including..."

"Yep. And Pip's just as dangerous, as he got paid to kill people. And I'm dangerous. Agatha. Winchesters. The nun. Setsuna. Probably half the school. And they're still here. Training and time, Mopey One ~~Kenobi~~. Maybe you just need to relax, to take a day off or something."

"I guess..." she sighed.

"Just take a day off. There's a spa thing in town, there's a spa thing in the dorms. It'll do you good?"

Liz nodded slowly, "I'll think about it," she said quietly.

He gives her another squeeze. "Couldn't hurt, right?" ~~Unless Liz was allergic to water and exfoliants.~~

Liz nodded, "Right," ~~not that I know of~~

John was silent, wondering if Liz would be okay. For the night, at least.

Liz was also silent, which really wasn't anything new but while she wasn't even close to being a 100% she would be okay for the night.

Which would be good to know, if John could read minds. So instead, he gives her another squeeze and wonders how best to say "you gonna be okay" without being blunt.

"If you want to go you can," Liz said softly.

"Only if you're gonna be okay. Don't wanna just abandon you here or osmething/"

Liz nodded slowly, "I'll be okay,"

"Alright, then." He gives her another hug, if she wants one. "You know where to find me."

Liz was grateful for another hug, she nodded, "thank you," she said quietly.

"No prob. I'll see you around?"

"Yeah I'll be around," Liz said softly.

"Good to hear. Same here." He stood up to leave.

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